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In A Devils Mind

2/10/06 01:40 pm - Whats Happening.

Girl. Do you think when im protective. I only want to hurt you?
Its not true. I do it because i care and im scared to lose you.
When i call you late at night, and keep you up, do think i do to make you lose sleep?
I only want to hear your voice. Because i hate sleeping when i dont.
When i had to see you, do you think i do just to take up your scedual, or because i was bored?
I dont, i only love seeing you, and it breaks my heart everytime i had to watch you get in that car and drive away.
When i wanted to fuck up that other guy, because of what happened over the summer, did you think i was only doing it to cause trouble or look hard?
I didnt, because it just upsetted me. something like that could happen. and had you were to share that experience. with a night that would have meant nothing to you.
When i argue?
I cant explain that. Im cocky, and stubborn, we both are, and im sorry for that. i have no excuse. but i know im wrong.
When i would wake you up, do you think i did that because i didnt enjoy you sleeping in my arms?
I did. but i wanted to spend time with you because i was always in a rush.
When i never wanted to watch a movie, did you think it was because i thought that was boring?
It isnt. i only wanted to spend time with you, wanted you to talk to me, tell me things no one else knows.
When i keep coming back for kisses before you would get in your car... did you think i just wanted to get you in trouble for going home early?
I never did. because every kiss meant more then a million dollers to me.

I could go on forever.
Over all.
Im sorry.
I really really am.
The Sun is out, The birds are singing.
Im going to california.
Im doing great in school.
But your still missing from my life.


I cant really say much more.
Except that please dont stop loving me.
And dont forget about what we have.
And everything thats to come in the future.

2/5/06 08:27 pm

SARAH MCLAUGHLIN
I LOVE YOU

I have a smile stretched from ear to ear
To see you walking down the road
We meet at the lights, I stare for a while
The world around us disappears
It's just you and me on my island of hope
A breath between us could be miles
Let me surround you, a sea to your shore
Let me be the calm you seek

But everytime I'm close to you
There's too much I can't say
And you just walk away

And I forgot to tell you
I love you
And the night's too long
And cold here
Without you
I grieve in my condition
For I cannot find the words to say
I need you so

And everytime I'm close to you
There's too much I can't say
And you just walk away

And I forgot to tell you
I love you
And the night's too long
And cold here
Without you
I grieve in my condition
For I cannot find the words to say
I need you so. I need you


_________________________________________


Please dont think this is good bye.
Because it really is not.
I love you with all my heart.





I got things to do, and i know that.
But ill be ready.
When the time is right.

I know you will know when that is, your smart enough.
And when the time is right.
We will be okay. :)

<3

Smile.
And be happy.
Please Keep A Good Memory.

Read this again.. And think back to that first day i saw you when we had broken up, i hadnt seen you for weeks. When you got out of you car and walked towards me..

I have a smile stretched from ear to ear
To see you walking down the road
We meet at the lights, I stare for a while
The world around us disappears
It's just you and me on my island of hope
A breath between us could be miles
Let me surround you, a sea to your shore
Let me be the calm you seek

1/25/06 07:39 am - I remember that one night..

She says that shes thinking about us getting back together.
But shes not sure yet.


She needs to be 100% sure.
And thats so understandable.
Iv heard that im an unrealiable guy before..

But not in this case.


How could i forget?

Maybe being head over heels is bad.
Maybe im to in love.
Maybe im not.
Me and her have so much.
The craziest thing is. We both know it too.

When she looks in my eyes..
I can feel my ears turning bright red and becoming real warm..
Like i used to when i was just a kid.
But now im grown up.
And im experiencing it in a whole different way.




Dont get me wrong. iv been through a lot of girls.. but none like this.

i love you baby :)

1/16/06 11:37 pm - Make it over the hill..

We talk every night.
She smiles.
I smile back.
She laughs.
I melt.


I can for once say.
I havent felt like this.
Jack johnson.
Christmas.
My last birthday.


Damn this girl just dosent give up.
She makes me so happy.

1/13/06 12:31 pm - Long nights.

A lots been happening.
Im okey.



Smile.
I keep telling myself too?

Itll be fine..
I miss her.

10/6/05 03:36 pm - J.L.A.E.G.I.E.B.W ugh

Head Hurts.
And Im fuckin dieing inside.

This is driving me nuts.

 

9/11/05 09:01 pm - Soul Survivor

[Intro:]
Convict
Akon and Young Jeezy
Tryin' to take it easy
Only way to go
And So...

[Chorus (Akon):]
If you lookin' for me I'll be on the block
With my thang cocked possibly sittin' on a drop (Now)
'Cuz I'm a rida (Yeah)
I'm just a Soul Survivor (Yeah)
'Cuz er'body know the game don't stop
Tryin' to make it to the top for your ass get popped (Now)
If you a rida (Yeah)
Or just a Soul Survivor (Yeah)

[Verse 1 (Young Jeezy):]
(Let's get it) At night I can't sleep--we livin' in Hell (Yeah)
First they, give us the work then they throw us in jail (Ayy)
Road trip ya--I'm trafficing in the white
Please Lord don't let me go to jail tonight (Yeah)
Who Me?? I'm a Soul Survivor
Ask about 'em in the street, the boy Jeezy a rida (Jeezy a rida)
A hundred grand on my wrist, yeah life (Ha Ha), sucks
Fuck the club, dawg, I rather count a million bucks (Ayy)

[Chorus (Akon):]
If you lookin' for me I'll be on the block
With my thang cocked possibly sittin' on a drop (Now)
'Cuz I'm a rida (Yeah)
I'm just a Soul Survivor (Yeah)
'Cuz er'body know the game don't stop
Tryin' to make it to the top for your ass get popped (Now)
If you a rida (Yeah)
Or just a Soul Survivor (Yeah)

[Verse 2 (Young Jeezy):]
Another day, another dolla (dolla)-same block, same nigga, same part, same green
I guess we got the same dreams (Ayy)
Or is it the same nightmares (nightmares)
We let the Thugs do it for us--we don't cry tears (That's right)
Real niggaz don't budge
When Mail Man got his time he shot birds at the judge (Yeah)
I'm knee deep in the game
So when it's time to read up, I'm knee deep in the cane (Damn)
Real talk, Look, I'm tellin' you mayne (tellin' you mayne)
If you get jammed up don't mention my name
Forgive me Lord--I know I aint livin' right
Gotta feed the block, niggaz starvin', they got appitites (Ayy)
And this is er'day, it never gets old (Old)
Thought I was a juvenile stuck to the G-Code (Yeah)
This aint a rap song, nigga this is my life (this is my life)
And if the hood was a battlefield then I'd earn stripes (Yeah)

[Chorus (Akon):]
If you lookin' for me I'll be on the block
With my thang cocked possibly sittin' on a drop (Now)
'Cuz I'm a rida (Yeah)
I'm just a Soul Survivor (Yeah)
'Cuz er'body know the game don't stop
Tryin' to make it to the top for your ass get popped (Now)
If you a rida (Yeah)
Or just a Soul Survivor (Yeah)

[Verse 3 (Young Jeezy):]
Gotta watch er' move 'cuz them eyes be on you (eyes be on you)
Gotta dry real cool when them pies be on you (pies be on you)
Just because we stack paper and we ball outrageous (ball outrageous)
Them alphabet boys gotta us under survalence (Ayy)
(Lock Downs) They lock us in cages
The same nigga that's a star when you put 'em on stages
I aint cheat--played the hand I was dealt
Tried to tax the grand pearl when I got it myself
(Let's Get It) No nuts, no glory (no glory)
My biography, you damn right, the true story (Yeah)
Set the city on fire, and I didn't even try (try)
Run these streets all day, I can sleep when I die (Ayy)

[Bridge (Akon):]
'Cuz if you lookin' for me you can find me
On the block disobeyin' the law
Real G--therobred from the streets
Pants saggin' with my gun in my draws
Just to keep on movin' out
Just to keep on movin' out
Just to keep on movin' out
Just to keep on movin' out

[Chorus (Akon) 2x:]
If you lookin' for me I'll be on the block
With my thang cocked possibly sittin' on a drop (Now)
'Cuz I'm a rida (Yeah)
I'm just a Soul Survivor (Yeah)
'Cuz er'body know the game don't stop
Tryin' to make it to the top for your ass get popped (Now)
If you a rida (Yeah)
Or just a Soul Survivor]

 

Late Nights.
No Worries.
Late Fone Calls.
And theyr all full of love.
Baby You keep me going.

This realationship is so much better. I have No worries. No need to hide anything.
God Im so Happy. Knock On SOME wood. And pray for me please. hehe

(By the way-No im not being gangsta. Just a good fuckin song.)

8/26/05 10:13 pm

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that its time to move
The winters so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, sOme that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slaVe till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show mE yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until YOU hold my hand

Swing life away

 

 

 

Shes so amazing.
:)

<3


8/10/05 11:10 pm

Im with Jenny Now.
I dont think iv ever been this happy.
Knock on wood.
Because shes just so damn amazing.

 

Thank You Sean.

And Thank you God.
If it wasnt for you. I dont know where id be.

I knew everything would work out :)

7/16/05 02:46 pm - fuck yeah nigger

K so i dont even know dude
Cali has been ok.
I got 2nd in my surf competition.
But i want to come home.
Shits been bothering me lately.
But im tight no worries lol
I went to hollister and went on a shopping spree.
I havent seen morgan in a long time. Im having a seperation problem. Shes changed, oh well.
Tired As Fuckkkkk

 

fuck the past LIVE FOR THE FUTURE. Damn good words right ther. lol
Im gratefull foir life, and its been treatin me good.

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