2/10/06 01:40 pm - Whats Happening.
Its not true. I do it because i care and im scared to lose you.
When i call you late at night, and keep you up, do think i do to make you lose sleep?
I only want to hear your voice. Because i hate sleeping when i dont.
When i had to see you, do you think i do just to take up your scedual, or because i was bored?
I dont, i only love seeing you, and it breaks my heart everytime i had to watch you get in that car and drive away.
When i wanted to fuck up that other guy, because of what happened over the summer, did you think i was only doing it to cause trouble or look hard?
I didnt, because it just upsetted me. something like that could happen. and had you were to share that experience. with a night that would have meant nothing to you.
When i argue?
I cant explain that. Im cocky, and stubborn, we both are, and im sorry for that. i have no excuse. but i know im wrong.
When i would wake you up, do you think i did that because i didnt enjoy you sleeping in my arms?
I did. but i wanted to spend time with you because i was always in a rush.
When i never wanted to watch a movie, did you think it was because i thought that was boring?
It isnt. i only wanted to spend time with you, wanted you to talk to me, tell me things no one else knows.
When i keep coming back for kisses before you would get in your car... did you think i just wanted to get you in trouble for going home early?
I never did. because every kiss meant more then a million dollers to me.
I could go on forever.
I really really am.
The Sun is out, The birds are singing.
Im going to california.
Im doing great in school.
But your still missing from my life.
I cant really say much more.
Except that please dont stop loving me.
And dont forget about what we have.
And everything thats to come in the future.